9 more days?
9 days until my due date.... hopefully 9 days or less until baby will be here(wishful thinking I know, just let a girl dream).
Am I going to miss this?
Am I going to miss my belly?
Am I going to miss my swollen feet?
Am I going to miss feeling and seeing baby moving inside my belly?
To tell you the truth, I think I will. Pregnancy was never really my cup of tea, I don't like feeling pregnant bellies and feeling the baby move. But when baby is in my belly, I actually LOVE when she moves. My whole belly does 'the wave' and if I set the remote control on my belly it jumps around so much it makes me laugh right outloud. I know that new adventures await me when this baby is no longer in my belly and I can actually hold her, but those adventures are also.... scary.
This baby is not my niece or nephew, she will not just go back to her Mom or Dad when I'm tired, or when she poops, or at the end of the day because, I'M her Mom.
I have to raise someone else?
How do I do that?
How do I teach her words to say, and manners, and things to do?
Doesn't anyone else find this scary?
I have been wanting baby to come out for like a week now. No, I am not looking forward to the labor part but now, I don't know how excited I am about the newborn, no-sleep, sore nipples, tired part.
On the other hand, I can't wait to see her eyes. Will they be dark like Chase's side of the family? Or will they be light like mine? Chase has one of each so it will be interesting to see.
I can't wait to see her hair(if she has any) and her lips.
I can't wait to see if she looks like Chase or me.
I can't wait for the first time I hold her. I get tears in my eyes just thinking about it.
I can't wait for her to wear her first outfit and for me to put headbands with BIG bows on her head.
I can't wait to see her first smile, hear her first laugh, feel her grab my finger, and have my hold be enough to stop her from crying.
Dear baby,
You've stretched my belly out to the max, I don't think there is any room left. So if you could please come out, gently, I would greatly appreciate it. I have a few requests though:
1. Let's try sleeping for hours at a time, maybe not all night right away, but a solid 3 or 4 would work for me.
2. Please be gentle on my boobies, Mommy is not looking forward to that part.
3. I would appreciate the crying to be minimal. :)
4. It would be great if you were a social baby, let anyone hold you, and not be just a mommies girl. I want you to be able to go to anyone so Mommy can have a break every now and then. But always love me the most.
I can't wait to see you with your Daddy. He has been wanting you for as long as I've known him. He wants to hold you when you are crying and needs the practice with changing diapers. So if you could poop when he's holding you, that would be great. Thanks. Us girls have to stick together.
Love,
Your Mom
Pregnancy is almost over, Motherhood is about to commence.
Wish me luck.